You goin Laos and I can't even tell or sharing my mood right now. I'm dizzy... From I knew the news that you going to Laos, I still may effort. But only left few hour my heart will getting nervous and afraid , I wonder why? I been lose myself and just like fall into heaven... I think I saw somethings and it make my heart more depressed, it maybe just small matter, but I try to used microscope. Perhaps I have no confident at all....
Mamma asked me issit believe in Faith... Perhaps...

Medicine only may paralyze myself and I drive myself crazy...

Perhaps

Perhaps I have to ate medicine to calm down during you went to holidays... I'm just like a death man without you, no more laugh, no more talkative and I miss my direction and become the old me...

Just wish during this 2 weeks may pass soon...

2 more days...

2 more days and you will go to Laos, it was your holiday and I do regret and I miss the holiday with you... Perhaps you got new friend at there and you will forget me and everythings happened at here. But it really helpful and gain experience for your whole life.  I do afraid and worry your personal safety.

Actually I hope I may spend more hour before you went to Laos, I don't want work during this few days. I just want be with you and I will start my job after you went to Laos...
and thank for you gift, will return you the gift in further time...
 I really miss you, just like to hide you in my pocket.
Knee on the floor and pray for the God, Bless mine Jasmine...
And please bring belong my biggest survenior to me...
I miss you...

Tension

So darn tension on my recently job, I will never step on this roadshow and I do promise myself, it make me dizzy and tension. And luckily my parents and my love they all beside me and do love me, if not I' m for sure going loca...
Perhaps I quit this job only I get my freedom...

Happy belated birthday to babee....

Happy birthday to you babee...I' m happy and enjoyed to celebrate birthday with you. Although we just knew each person not longer time, but you're too friendly and cute... Anyway, wish you have a blast!
Love you and the Big Babee forever and ever....
Big hug...

What wrong to me...

I feel sad and hopeless. Every morning I try to make myself happy, I try to be with you and do exercise to relax my tension and bad mood...
Recently happened much much things surrounded me, accident, last time you try break up with me and my mum, I know that maybe is not a big deal for a person. But for me, both of you was very important for me... And I know my temper is bad... But sometime I try to control it and don't let it splash it out...
And I know i keep mumble on you everytime you need relax and privacy, because surrounded you also happened so much things, include your study, renter, PCY... It make you getting Hot...
If you really need a space, I will do respect you, but atleast you talk softly or do request...
I feel sad and afraid if you are rude to me, I duno what to do or even I will speak alot of nonsense or bullshit without thinking and meaningful infront you...
I know that maybe I should try to face on the problem or the trouble. It is a part of our memory and exp. For other people maybe is just a piece of cake but for me is just like the sky is falling down, I' m learning to face the things and do think positive...
Sorry I did mistake, I just kidding with you and I have nothing special or angry on you...

And I love you and mum hope you recover soon...

Actually

Actually thank for the change, and i won't mess up anymore...  Quite tired today and headache, actually I wish you ask me to stay, I know that if I want to stay forsure you will allow...
But, I did lot of mistake and I afraid that you not happy if I stay at your home...
I miss you like crazy....
please bless me God...
I trust in karma...

thank you

Thank for accept my apolozige, giving me a change. I promise I will like to do a betterman and solve the problem as a man.. And do not feel emo anymore... Is not pretty anymore... muak...

First day

We been working at together but we did't talk even you round me, i feel upset and i do correct my way... i can't stop missing you...