Sorry that I been long time ago do not update my blog. Recently I can't even know what I want or what I want to make it. I just think back why I break my hand that time? And why I used to be waste half year for doing part-time job and did nothing, perhaps...
Everytime I heard your's mum called me as a small boy, I feel guilty and I sadness. I have to spend 1 more years for my study. Our plan had been delay cause of my temper.
Sometime I told what I want need and maybe I told you I feel imbalance under my broken heart. That was a truth. And I know that I' m not a person can present my way naturally, I need someone to open my heart.
I was always waiting for you, always....
And I need time to stick back my heart. Is funny that you has a small boy' friend and easily heart broken.
I admit recently just like not always stick on you or maybe escape from you, because I worry that can't even control my temper and I will argue with you.
And please don't worry that I will falling love on someone or I do not love you anymore. I just scare I will easily broke this relationship with my hot temper. For me, I can tell you 100% I still love you.
I' m sorry that recently I keep asking you to accompany me to natural. Because I trust natural may help me release my mood. And I know, maybe it was an escape, but I know this the way to relax my way.
I' m not using the way to act pity to get your heart. I just feel sad.
Forgive me...
